I jumped! I couldn't believe that I actually did it. Then I had to muster up the courage to be strong every single week. In November, I told you I took the plunge. No, I didn't get married as I already took that plunge over twenty years ago and survived, actually had it's ups and downs but my marriage is much better today than they day I got married. In Jumping Off the Deep End....Scared but Safe, I shared how God nudged me for quite some time to organize a ladies bible study at my church. I refused to listen for some time. Wait. I listened. I refused to act for a long time until he yelled at me one day. He told me, "I will NOT fail YOU! I am with you always and I will NOT fail you!" So I jumped!
I am tickled to share that God did as he promised. He was with me every step of the way. With one Face Book message and a couple invites at Sunday School, I had twelve people come to my bible study on very short notice. For me, it's not about numbers because it's not about me. It's always been about sharing God with others. I want them to know him the way I have started to know him.
The ladies were so warm and encouraging. I kept praying for the right words as I am not a teacher. Some weeks, I came home and worried that I didn't use the right words. I then prayed again for God to give me the words he wanted met to share. I believe that God is shining in that little bible study. I believe he will shine even brighter as the ladies continue their journey.
We planned another study to begin in January. The church really wanted to advertise this time. They wanted to last time, but due to the short notice they did not. Well, the blurb went out in the newsletter this week. In less than 24 hours of the newsletter being distributed, I had four new ladies who wanted to join us.
I sit here with tears of joy streaming down my cheeks as this is what God wanted. He wanted an opportunity to reveal himself to these ladies. Then I also sit here nervous as I still am not confident in my teaching abilities and the bigger the class the more pressure I feel personally. I also know I have time issues that I am trusting God will work through with me as I know I might have Sunday evening conflicts with my daughters volleyball tournaments. So I know God will not fail me. I know this is part of His plan.
So my prayers continue as all I want is for God to shine through this class and for him to give me the words He wants me to say. It's not my class. It's His class. I'm just there for the ride.
I have to say ever since this ladies bible study began, my children have seen a new side of me. They expressed words of pride. It's teaching my children how to take control of their faith. How to listen to God and then share your faith with others. I didn't realize how me listening to the nudges and then ultimately the yelling would impact my children. So maybe God's plan was not only to give him a way to reveal himself to ladies, but also to my children.
Don't fear for I am with you; Don't be afraid, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. I will surely help you. I will hold you with my righteous strong hand. Isaiah 41:10